Thoughts from December 12

1. I'm glad I'm not a BYU-I. I'm wearing my one pair of non-skinny jeans. I'm not a huge fan. I love my skinny jeans.
2. Mondays are hard when the office is FREEZING!!!
3. I really need to get more sleep.
4. I need ideas for quick and easy breakfasts. I'm running out of ideas and I don't like oatmeal.
5. Angela doesn't like being pressured into something. I'll feel cornered and then run away. You gotta ease in gently.
6. Why must it pour when it rains?! I guess competition is good. Provides a catalyst. But why? Why do guys need competition. So does that mean flirt with the guy I'm sorta interested in in front of the guy i'm really interested in? (See # 12) Not like hard core flirting but just enough to make him wonder about his how secure he is in my heart?
7. I really like this song. Blackout by Breathe Carolina. I'm not sure why. :) I've listened to it several times already today.
8. I still have trust issues with guys. I recognize it is something I need to get over so that is a good step. I just hope that by me telling guys they recognize that they shouldn't add to my reasons for mistrust. 
9. I love Dr Pepper.
10. Dr Horrible makes me smile :)
11. Yay damage control.
12. All the dating things I've heard the past few days/weeks/months keep saying to back off and let the guys take control. It must be true. I've been trying to be better at this and it is interesting the results that happen when you do back off. Let the guy chase. I have a hard time finding that line. I feel like I go too far to the other side where I just seem completely uninterested. (See also #6)
13. I forgot how much I enjoy the gym. :)

Jon McLaughlin's Beautiful Disaster

Love him.

Love the song.

Hello World - Lady Antebellum

Traffic cars, cell phone calls
Top video screams at me
Through my tender window I see
A little girl, rust red minivan
She's got chocolate on her face
Got little hands, And she waves at me
Ya, She smiles at me

Hello World
How've you been
Good to see you, my old friend
Sometimes I feel, cold as steel
Broken like I'm never gonna heal
I see a light, little hole
In the little world

Hello world
Every day I drive by
A little white church
It's got these little white crosses
Like angels in the yard
Maybe I should stop on in
Say a prayer
Maybe talk to God
Like he is here
Oh I know he is there
Ya, I know he's there

Hello world
How've you been
Good to see you, my old friend
Sometimes I feel as cold as steel
And broken like I'm never going to heal
I see a light
Little grace, little faith for the world
Hello world

Sometimes I forget what living's for
And I hear my life through my front door
And I'll be there
Oh I'm home again
I see my wife, little boy, little girl
Hello world
Hello world

All the angels disappears
I remember why I'm here
Just surrender and believe
I fall down on my knees
Oh hello world
Hello world

*Dear world, I'm going to miss you the next few weeks while I dig a hole in my homework. Please be around when I come back! Love, Angela

"Someday You Will Be Loved" by Death Cab for Cutie

I once knew a girl
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
Someday you will be loved

Just a Little Girl

She's always tryin' to be
some independent girl who is never in need...

...because she's just a little girl - time isn't holding her down
she's just a little girl - she never needed a crown
she just wants somebody around
who won't laugh when she laughs too loud
she just wants somebody to see
she's just a little girl
-Stephen Speaks

Someone To Share It With

"I've got dreams and aspirations
And I'm pretty good at conversations
I've got a heart I want to give
But I need someone to share it with

I love music and don't mind dancing
I'm easygoing, a little bit old-fashioned
I'm a sucker for sunsets, but the trouble is
I need someone to share it with"

-Rodney Adkins

Storm by Lifehouse

How long have I been in this storm?

So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form

Water's getting harder to tread

With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you

Everything would be alright

If I'd see you

This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

I know everything will be alright

I know everything will be alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown

So why am I ten feet under and upside down

Barely surviving has become my purpose

Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you

Everything would be alright

If I'd see you

This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I know everything will be alright

I know everything will be alright.