Good Old Country Songs

What I was listening to today :)

http://grooveshark.com/s/She+Wont+Be+Lonely+Long/31XIMh?src=5
http://grooveshark.com/s/A+Feelin+Like+That/37x0vc?src=5

Dreams

The past few weeks I've had this reoccurring dream where I'm in Smiths grocery store searching for yogurt. If I remember correctly I don't find the yogurt. There is a sense of urgency in my dream as I'm at the check out. And both times I've looked down and seen a black and white dog just chilling next to me. Usually curled up in a submissive stance. In one of the two dreams an ex-boyfriend was present.


At work this week a few of us had a discussion about dreams and we looked up the meanings of dreams. Here is what the above dream says about my life. Interesting how some of it is right on. Some of it is a stretch. I really don't read too much in to what people think dreams mean but it sure is interesting. Take it as you will.


Shopping

To dream that you are shopping symbolizes your needs and desires. It also represents opportunities and options that you come across in life. Consider what you are shopping for and what needs you are try to fulfill. In particular, to dream that you are shopping for food and groceries signifies your hidden attempt to buy the attention of others. If you are shopping for clothes, then it suggests that you are trying to put forth a new image.

To dream that you cannot find what you are shopping for suggests that you are trying to find a solution to some life problem.

Yogurt

To see or eat yogurt in your dream suggests that you need to learn to behave appropriately for the different situations and various circumstances you find yourself in.

Dog

To see a dog in your dream symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it indicates some inner conflict within yourself. It may also indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness. If the dog is dead or dying, then it means a loss of a good friend or a deterioration of your instincts. 

To see a dog chasing its tail or running around in circles in your dream implies that you are not handling a situation in an effective way. You are spending too much time on fruitless labor.   

To see a black colored dog in your dream symbolizes the shadow aspect of a friend. The dark side of someone close to you is being revealed and you are able to see through to their true intentions.

Boyfriend

To see your boyfriend in your dream represents your waking relationship with him and how you feel about him.

http://www.dreammoods.com

I told you so

You always hate those comments. They were right and you were wrong. They knew it and you screwed up. It is even worse when it is you that told yourself not to do something.

Months ago I had a conversation with myself. It went something like this.

Angela 1: This isn't gonna work. It is too much all at once.

Angela 2: Yeah... you are probably right. But I think I'm gonna do it anyway.

Angela 1: That is what everyone else says and everyone else fails.

Angela 2: But I'm gonna be different than everyone else.

Angela 1: That is what everyone says. "They are the exception."

Angela 2: Well maybe I am this time.

Angela 2 ignored Angela 1 and did it anyway.

Yesterday Angela 1 had her moment of triumph and told Angela 2 "I told you so."

Count Down Pictures - Day 36

I helped my friend Ashlie eat her cake. 

It was seriously SO YUMMY!!!

Count Down Pictures - Day 37

I went shopping and got yoga pants I've been wanting for a while.

Picture Worthy

New goal: Do something everyday that is photo worthy. 

I may not actually take pictures of the photo worthy things, but I need to do something that is worth taking a picture. I have gotten in a rut of watching some awesome TV shows. However, that is just lame.

Here is what I've done so far:

21 April 2012 

Rugby Game

23 April 2012 

Shopping at City Creek with Erin and Ashlie

I seriously loved that place!!! The water fountain danced to music and had FIRE! You can't beat that.

25 April 2012

Cake at Ashlie's

Dinner with Laura (got caught up on life)

Birthday party for Andrew

26 April 2012

Luau at work

27 April 2012

Dinner with Erin at Marleys

Erin's Going Away Party!! (Erin has these pictures)

28 April 2012

Erin to England

I almost cried. We tried to not be emotional. Goodbyes are hard.

Laura's service activity - we helped lay down sod. Her ward was super nice and very open and welcoming. Not something I was expecting.

Yogurt with Jess - went and got frozen yogurt with Jess.

29 April 2012

Went to Church

Played Bocce Ball with Ryan

Went to ward prayer - it hasn't been something I've attended the past few weeks. It was so worth it. Said goodbye to a good friend and swapped some awesome stories.

After a rough week I have come to realize just how blessed I am. This realization wasn't easy to come by but I'm sure glad it did.

Just to get it off my chest I'm gonna list a few of the things that did not help my week.

• Erin was leaving and is now gone. I haven't realized how much it has meant to me to have her as a roommate and best friend. Oh my heck. These next few weeks are gonna be stinking hard. 
• I found out someone at work has a problem with me. Not such a big deal but the fact that she goes and tells my boss instead of me and then demands me to do things for her. It frustrates me. Just juvenile. Grow up.
• My computer power cord stopped working and I have a lot to do inorder to get my free replacement. Not sure if it is worth it. (Thank goodness I have a wonderful sister who left me her cord).
• Traffic this week sucked. Like a lot. In my many drives to and from work I've seen a bunch of accidents. This week (in one day) I saw two separate roll overs. A first in my time as a commuter. I also got cut off by some awesome drivers.
• I'm feeling lost in a few things and missing some dear friends.
• You'd think that now that I have a full time job that my biggest worries would be over. Not true. Although I have a steady (awesome) job, I don't know what the future holds for me. I have no plan. Do I stay here in Provo and be with my sisters. Or do I move to SLC to be closer to work? Who would I even room with if I did move north? 

Ok you get the gist. This week has been one I'm ready to forget. Now - on to the positive things and the blessings I recognized.

• I have a job. I have a job in my field. A job where I can learn and grow. I work with awesome people who really care about me. It is such a great opportunity. I have a JOB in my FIELD!!! Beat that.
• I have a home. Driving to SLC every day I see a lot of homeless individuals wandering around. I am so grateful that I have the blessings I do. I have money to support myself. I have family that loves me and would take care of me if necessary.
• I am healthy. I know that sounds a bit mundane. But seriously. I have no serious health problems. Nothing bugs me. Not my knees, my shoulders or my internal organs. I don't have to be on a special diet. I'm not allergic to anything. I am truly blessed.
• I have friends who care. Sometimes you forget all the people around you who do really care about you. In my time of need they have come to my aid. Some of them have been people I would have never thought would do anything. I am humbled and honored. I really need to do better at being the friend I want in others.
• My family is freaking awesome! Need I expound more? I wish they weren't so far away. I've been homesick a bit lately and just wishing I could go home for the weekend and crash on the couch. Too bad home is so far away. 6ish weeks and I'll be home.

Tired of it

I'm tired of the drama. Why can't people just grow up? Be adults. Be professional. Be better.

I seem to find myself in situation after situation with certain people that just cause drama. I understand that everyone has different struggles and trials. I get it. But that doesn't mean we have to act like 2-year-olds.

If you have a problem, tell me about it. Don't go tattling to others about me. I have NO idea that anything is going on until someone else (not connected at all) says to me "hey now, don't cry." What am I supposed to be crying about?? Did I miss something?? I have no idea... Oh well. Maybe I'll never know.

I'm also tired of the I'm-better-than-you-air that people put on when they get engaged or married or have children. I guess I should be pleased that these people have found confidence one way or another, but it still rubs me the wrong way.